The crisis, the heavy feeling, the not knowing where to go, what to do, where to belong come from the program.
It’s not good or bad or the other thing.
Our life is cyclical. It is not a straight line. We go through cycles. We are born, we live, we die. We wake up, we are awake, we fall asleep, we sleep.
Our experiences have beginnings, a middle, and an end. Like a story.
Sometimes it feels heavy to bear but does it change when we watch it? When we begin to not take it personal. Oh yes, you may want to argue that it feels damn real. But could you start to not identify with it so much, not make up reasons to why you are feeling what you are feeling, be in the experience and see how it changes? Over time.